Monday, February 7, 2011

MAYBE SHE WAS JUST TIRED.........


The task was beyond the bounds of possibility for her. And, they tirelessly reiterated ‘MOVE ON!’
But, it is unattainable when you get used to somebody. Don’t you agree? *Do not deny facts*
Gradually, you get accustomed to them. They become a habit for you and you begin associating certain places with them, several songs never fail to remind you of the moments shared together. There’s a hell lot of associative nostalgia that keeps on accumulating at the back of your mind which every now and then escapes from your cranial cabin and successfully blurs your bright and sunny day. 
At times you feel you are the happiest soul on this Earth and out of nowhere, a poor Radio Jockey plays a random track and you feel like screaming…

Please, Mr., please, don’t play B-17
It was our song, it was his song, but it’s over
Please, Mr., please, if you know what I mean
I don’t ever wanna hear that song again

Nevertheless, she was asked to ‘Move On!’ Ah! It was baffling. It was worse than the excruciating pain she felt due to his uninvited absence. Days, weeks and months went by. She made hundreds of attempts to forget him but guess what? She failed. She spent days waiting for that one call from his end, which never came. For months she waited for a single glimpse of his, which she still awaits for.

But, then, dawned a new day and she resolved, finally.

After all of these, maybe she was just tired of too many dead ends, phone calls never returned, promises that were never kept, tripping over the same stone again and again.

This time around, she had the strong conviction in her decision. She told herself, ‘This is it!’
She made up her mind to turn a blind eye to his ignorance which was never called for. She was determined to avoid every tiny thing that reminded her of him. But, what would she do to those myriad memories that simply couldn’t be washed away?

Nevertheless a complete year flew by. She indeed tried her best to keep all of his talks, ways and memories away. She knew He Was Forgotten. Yes! He Was. As life got busy, there seemed to be no time to spare over the ever present past.

After over an extremely happening year, there came a day when she found herself as idle as she had never been for months. She decided to watch Brad Pitt and Julia Roberts starrer ‘The Mexican’. Half way into the movie, she came across the dialogues,
 “When You Love Somebody and Do Not Seem to Get along Together, When Do You Realize that Enough is Enough? Never! ”
It all of a sudden, crowded her mind with an assorted host of memories, which were at least five years old and had been buried for long and rendered her vision, all filmy. Yes! She agreed to it. Never can you recollect a moment when you feel ‘Enough is Enough’! A part of you, to be precise, your heart doesn't grant you the agreement even though your mind says ‘Enough is Enough!’

He had lived in her memories for all these months, silently. Though his absence hurt, irked, pained, yet he was never a stranger. And, this stays as a universal fact. 

No matter what, feelings and memories never erode. 
They just linger on. 
Sometimes, IN FOCUS and sometimes, OUT OF FOCUS!
Doesn't it click?

36 comments:

  1. ooohh...when did u write this..now i get the connection! :P

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  2. Who is dis? You need to know me quite well to get the connection !

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  3. niceee :)
    -griffen

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  4. this is your 2nd chikumpee! :P :P

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  5. @ griffen.. :)

    @ aayushi.. oh ok ! wht connection you get ? U knew it last night itself :D

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  6. that's the connection!! :P :P

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  7. this is very very well written...n honestly very true....-rajiv

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  9. @ hormaz...:)

    @ rajiv... thank you....thank you...

    @ anonymous.. yes..its pretty true...but who is this ?

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  10. All I can say is, for me, this piece is the set of dialogues . . :( But, every line of it is as true as the cry of a 2 month old baby . . - Mandira Tagore

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  11. @ Mandira... Nice that you could find a connection :)
    Indeed..it's written with utmost honesty !

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  12. hey arundhati.....shachi here!!!
    this is sooooo beautiful!!!!
    its so expressive...yet so simple.....
    and i can totally relate to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    <3 <3

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  13. @ Shachi... Thank you...thank you... :)
    And I had guessed that you would relate to it... :|
    thank you once again :)

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  14. Always happens. One can never forget people he's really felt for. Very nicely written.

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  15. Deana here...i love it! its jus so relevant... in so many ways!!! especially for meee :)
    my fav lines...maybe she was just tired of too many dead ends, phone calls never returned, promises that were never kept, tripping over the same stone again and again.<3

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  16. true!...true!...true!!

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  17. How do you write so emotional posts that can really trigger back memories that were locked or rather you tried locking them??

    Its true you can never forget you may say I've moved on and let go but do we really let go, if that had been the case the memories would not have rushed back to you!

    Could relate to it so very well....

    Take Care,
    Fatima

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  18. @ Meher... True... once you love somebody....that person stays on .. forever!

    @ Deana... I know...I know the relevance.
    :) :)

    @ Daisy... :) :)

    @ Fatima... I do not have the hang of writing emotional stuff and hence, rarely write such stuff. it's only when i am extraordinarily nostalgic do I end up writing such posts!

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  19. wow love this one. it does ring a bell. i really wish v could say enough s enough.

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  20. U could be changing lives with this post of yours
    Best loved quotes:

    "tripping over the same stone again and again"
    of course the mexican one!

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  21. :) You can say enough is Enough as many times as you wish to..but you won't mean it even once !

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  22. haha @ saurav. :) :) :) life changing and all... :P :P

    That quote is not from the Mexican..the Mexican one is Enough is Enough !

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  23. I feel the every bit of it almost everyday. The day starts with "Enough is Enough" and ends with a big reel of memories. A nice poem I read,thought of sharing with you...

    "Every night I empty my heart, but by morning it's full again.

    Slow droplets of you seep in through the night's soft caress.

    At dawn I overflow with thoughts of us,
    An aching pleasure that gives me no respite

    Love cannot be contained, the neat packaging of desire

    Splits asunder, spilling crimson through my days

    Long, languishing days that are now bruised tender with yearning

    Spent searching for a fingerprint, a scent, a breath you left behind."
    -- Shamim Sariff

    I lOVED this one, coz now it would also be associated with a never forgotten memory. I could feel the true essence of it. Great Arundhati !!

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  24. Its jus STUPENDOUS AND FABULOUS :)
    keep it up and happy writing :) :P
    The Thakur.

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  25. Very wel written..Enough is Enough!! I simply love it..

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  26. mahn mahn mahn...woman u hv gt maggic in ur hands...pls pls do gift me dis blog !! i jus want 2 kip it wid me..its awsum ..m in absolute love wid it ...!!!

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  27. this is like every girl's story! nice!

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  28. cool.....no i guess the word should be..."CONNECTD"....n agreed u r better wid write ups than poems...keep goin...too good...:)

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  29. Aruna! wat can i say!! amazing baby!!! and i knw the roots of this tale! luv u too much! :)
    - Sacha!

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  30. brilliant !! dudette!!
    an absurd blur fact xprsd BEA utifully!!
    just relived some of my past memories..! ;)

    No matter what, feelings and memories never erode.
    They just linger on.
    Sometimes, IN FOCUS and sometimes, OUT OF FOCUS!
    Doesn't it click?
    SUPERB endin...! just lvd it.. :* <3 :)

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  34. Hey..You just took my words away.. :)
    Awesome..
    - Paaro.

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