Saturday, January 15, 2011

Catharsis, At Last !

This is perhaps one of the very few posts I have written relying completely on my personal experiences.

'Estrangement', 'Alienation', 'Distance', 'Separation'

These do not form the basis of what follows but, plays an essentially important role in what lies ahead.

So, feel free to get connected to it, you may argue against it and one has all the rights to rubbish it off but, at the end of the day, it stays as true and genuine for me as we see the sun rise and set every dawn and dusk.

How often have we confined our deepest thoughts and feelings in our hearts waiting for that one beck that instantaneously prompts us to unveil it all at once? How often do we keep on enduring pains for the ones close to us? That’s something which can never earn a universal conviction hence, let that be aside.

After going through pains for long, one cannot deny the formal feeling that sets in and there’s always a lot to say even when we proclaim, ‘I have nothing more to say to you!’ and it all stays bottled up until that one moment when the memories from your past come gushing into your present and flood your vision as moments keep flashing by your eyes and render them all misty.

And, that is the hour when one cannot hold back the tears anymore; the words seem to flow like the pious river stream with nothing but the truth.

For me, it took just two lines and everything came back to me and suddenly the perpetual estrangement seemed to vanish into thin air, wetting my eyes out of nowhere.

For months, what stayed unspoken and untold, all the thoughts that were always a part of me and remained only with me found all the right words at the right time. Perhaps, it was the cathartic moment for me that proved ‘love’ and ‘pain’ goes hand in hand and one can never bear the insurmountable amount of pain unless the love is equally intense.

Ever since that evening, memories of all sorts have often hit me at strange hours and they have catapulted me over and over again between various time periods. After being captured by a strong feeling of nostalgia, as I write this out, there is only one thing which I am sure of.

I know...even after weeks, months, years, decades, the pains will reside in harmony with love, inseparable, next to each other, enclosed within the boundaries of the ever-suffering heart.

Peace!

20 comments:

  1. emotional.... nice
    -griffen

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  2. a nice post cming frm u aftr a long time... bt id definately like to know those 2 lines.... :P

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  3. Simple and Profound. Nostalgia strikes back, for me too. Reel rolling. :)

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  4. very touching message....:)arundhati the best...

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  5. touchin...however it wudve been more effectiv had u at least mentiond WHAT lead u in2 writin dis post...(as in...wat is dat painful moment...dat profound relationship)
    however truly nostalgic read....pushed all of us back in2 similar moments!!
    cheerz!!

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  6. @ griffen..thank you :)

    @ anupam.. Some tings r meant to stay in silence!

    @ tanvi... :) :)

    @ Karen... all the memories..and nostalgia made me write this.. :D :)

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  7. sumtyns missin i feel its nt complete...i wanna knw mor as 2 what xctly happened dat med u soo senti... i mean cmon a gal like u gettin senti bole toh nahi jama boss!! ...bt its cool.... i still feel u shud complete it... nt wording t xct situation bt somehw..try !!

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  8. I know..this write up has that emptiness...and I tried to make it complete but somehow that didn't happen and i actually didn't wish to continue writing with added ornamentation... hence, stopped it.. remember the abrupt end.. :P

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  9. Well would like to comment and say a lot but again just want to keep it within myself ;-)

    Well written and a nice blog layout too! Really proud to see you write your way into it!

    http://sudattamukherjee.blogspot.com/

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  10. Haha ! That's alright.. you can comment personally too.... :)
    Thank you...thank you...I too like this layout !

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  11. neelakshi naithaniJanuary 15, 2011 at 6:57 AM

    well wriiten
    really nostalgic

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  12. nice 1
    got a flashback of all dat m tryin to forget
    :(:(

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  13. @ neelakshi... :) :)

    @ Hormaz... Do not try to forget anything that has ever made you happy once upon a time...

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  14. Hey that was quite an emotional,sentimental and nostalgic post...

    Very true how certain things trigger certain memories and all..had a similar moment like yours some time back...and cried all alone, no one was there you see and hence the emptiness still remains just like this post !

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  15. I can very well understand how disobedient tears can be at times and even when I experienced this .. i had tears... :(
    Anyway... some tears just relieve you !

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  16. been there done that..and that's the reason i can connect with this post..simple yet so intense..!

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  17. too good..very touchin seriously....n i agree tat distance alienation separation somehow r a part of ur life whethr u want it or not agree or not...but know wat somethin some whrer is missing...want u to complete it...n well lemme know y u thought of writin this....on the whole i can connct n loved it...:)

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  18. The emptiness that you feel is deliberate...:P
    That reflects the emptiness one feels....because of the estrangements !
    Thank you, Thank you ! :)

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  19. arundhati..... speechless yaaar....just love wat u write.....it has so mnnny feeelings nd deep emotions....... dats jst 2 touchy :)

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  20. I loved the deliberate incompleteness in the post.. Naice Touchy post

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