I Abstain, Refrain, Restrain !

The grape vine talks, 

I never believed them.

You say, I hear, I trust.

But, a fearful change had to come.

Off late, it's different.

You talk, I learn more than you speak.

Ah! you don't know.

You don't know the way you thought you knew.

It's the demand of the months gone by - the space.

It's this space; day in and day out; 

It exists.

The words, they travel empty miles to reach.

They arrive.

I'm broken.

My patience, you test; I abstain.

My temper, you examine; I refrain.

My silence, you question; I restrain.

Do not wonder, "How?'

It's simple.

Wear a smile; convincing enough.

Design a world; familiar enough.

Walk on. Isn't it simple? 

I wish !

BIZZARE, AFTER SO LONG!

So did I ask you for anything ?

I am sure, I didn't.

Or did I expect a bit ?

Oh! No. Never.

Then, from where does this rift arise?

Why a feeling of sad demise?

The line; too distinct; it was drawn,

The rains didn't wash away, neither did it disappear by any storm.

O October! Why be so fateful?

A want so eerie, a wish so wistful.

Oh! Do not fear thee,

Like yesterday, it will never be.

A step or two, I did walk too much,

Still I didn't let the past with my present, merge.

I cannot lie, I put forth the truth,

I waited and waited, nothing helped the wait dilute.

In front of the mirror, now I question myself,

what book of expectations did reappear on the shelf?

From where on Earth did it return?

I go solemnly blank as I try to discern.

So, what do you suggest is needed?

Another long summer, another spell of rain?

I know nothing will suffice anymore,

to demolish the wall between my heart and brain!

No entry, yes! No entry for you,

No right you possess to reduce my laughter to smiles too few.

No room, anymore empty to again let you in,

Thus, I breath a sigh of relief, without an evil grin.

THAT PSYCHEDELIC AGE!

This poem is simply the most random poem I have ever written. During my Creative Writing lecture, the professor came up with this surprise Poetry Writing test and all I could come up was the poem that follows... The attempt could have been better and hence, somehow, I haven't felt the true sense of satisfaction with this work..!

Hope you guys enjoy reading this...!

THAT PSYCHEDELIC AGE!

The clashing reds and the shocking pinks,

The heap of filth that only stinks!

'MAKE LOVE, NOT WAR!' They went around chanting,

It was the reality, the social structure dismantling.

The 'SUMMER OF LOVE!' took the nation by surprise,

The psychedelic anarchy, on the mighty rise!

The weeds ended the lives in ashes,

the 'Purple Haze' was available in sachets.

'TURN ON, TUNE IN AND DROP OUT!, they all fell down,

They flower child mind the people calling him 'THE HAZARDOUS CLOWN'!

The whole of the Western world called them 'Creepies!'

While they proclaimed themselves as the carefree 'Hippies'!

Cheers! Leave Me Alone!

Was going through the Writer's Block phase and wanted to break it.

Tried my hand at versifying free verses but, alas! that's tough to do when writing serious poems after months.

Cheers! Leave Me Alone! 

Cheerful applause filling up the room,

Marching towards me...grand praises galore...

So, what does one carve out of these?

A Rosy life with place only for gayety, isn't it?

Further; racing up the stairs some moments from daybreak, daily...

My curious eardrums absorb the name from voices too many.

"Why me, once again?",the inner voice desires peace of mind,

'Peace of Mind'? Shocked; Tranquility, grew old, too many fortnights.

Popular! accepted with a hint of vanity...

Flashing the universal smile, reviving the sanity.

Scribbling nonsense syllables, engulfed in deep thoughts,

Thoughts; random and ceaseless, distracting; am lost!

"You did it!" laurel comes my way,

The bare void; I know, is still there to stay.

O Victory! do not teach me to celebrate,

Am aware of my ways; let us commemorate!

Another hour brings another cheer,

Another step towards success; am near.

Yet the shadow; Yes! the shadow,

Meets no light too bright; to kindly disappear.

Brilliance! I seek not thee,

It's the endeavour, I never wish for me.

Heard you knocking for sometime now,

Stay on! do not want my guest to be waiting for long!

Silence for an hour and queries are shot like bullets,

Why should I be audible, when I indulge with my heart in word plays?

Why O why, do you need to know every bit of it?

Have I lost the right to keep certain things forever sealed?

The hour of glory, grant me an immediate repose,

Call it a change, but, do not term me morose,

why do you keep digging into my yesterdays,

Yes! that was bliss, I know: but gone are the days.

So you wish to learn the reason for the Void?

Save it for a new day or simply ask Freud.

The man knows them all, the strange games my mind plays,

Spare me, till then, as for now, taciturnity hails!

Comprehending Emotions !

The ladies chatter and the men murmur,
The children are into their dreamy slumber...

Everything is right in their place,
While all alone, I simply star-gaze!

Thy silent smile holds a barrel of tears,
Where shall I...Empty my fears??

Like the thunders we hear in the sorrow of the cloud...
I don't want to express myself so loud..!

Is there anybody to comprehend my emotions?
For I am left with no more confessions..!

The woods are growing old, soon they'll fall...
Me too am finding tough to stand tall!

When you slammed the door, the door behind me closed...
That was the moment all my joys left me...when I needed them the most!

Too Close To Be Far....

There was this damsel,
as pretty and vulnerable as anybody could ever be....
Her Romeo, after months finally decided to open up today,
All one saw in Lucy's eyes was the dream of finally being "WE".
 
It was a warm sunny afternoon,
Lucy left her house, in spirits high.
Months' wait finally coming to an end,
She couldn't conceal her excitement, though she tried!
 
He was fond of flowers, she thought...
Quickly entering a florist's shop, vibrant blossoms she bought.
Soon in a minute or two, she was back on road,
All she knew was there would be nobody now to stop.
 
Hurried to their favorite colossal Banyan tree,
Under which he had once said..."I LOVE THEE !"
As she stood there longing for his glimpse,
Her heart skipped a sudden beat, she personified glee !
 
There she saw that wondrous smile, yes! there was that captivating look..
No wonder, their first meeting got them hooked.
Lucy's heart jumped wildly as she saw him nearing,
The dream she chiseled for so long, was finally materializing.
 
But, something seemed obnoxiously wrong.
The mischievious stare in his eyes was replaced by coldness,
Only Pain and grief was what she saw,
All over his face.
 
"What could it be ?", she silently wondered.
Could he give away his heart to somebody else ?
or did he wish to so away from her,
without leaving back any trace ?
 
He came close and held her tight,
She knew that everything seemed really right.
She could never let him go,
Without him, the sun in her sky could never glow.
 
But, destiny held a separation in store for them,
Love was never so easy, It appeared to be a devilish game.
He locked his eyes with hers and said that their dream was meant to forever stay as a dream,
As his people would never wish to see them in one single frame.
 
That evening, together they vowed under the Banyan tree,
No matter how far, their love shall be !
The gleaming bouquet rested on the rigid branches as a symbol of their undying flame,
They promised to one another, their hearts no other shall ever claim.
 
As they went on their own distinct paths that dusk,
They never knew what future for them, fate had lurk.
Though never did they try crossing paths again,
Instead of You and Me, they lived ever after as "WE".
 
The distance between them hardly mattered,
As they felt protected in each other's bosom.
They weaved the tapestry of their dream in their hearts,
The separation was defeated by their magical bond.
 
Years later, just like the tree is connected to the withered bouquet,
They are attached, though their hair has turned grey.
Lucy still is the fragile little girl behind that wrinkled face,
And her name still makes his ruckled face all ablaze.

As We Depart!

The doom’s day is approaching,
My mind going blank again…
Devoid of words..
And, the emotions filling me up with pain.

So many Plans…
Getting shattered in a moment,
Is it some fiction??
Or a fate to lament…??

Oh Time..!!.. listen to me,
Can’t you stop just once..
My heart ain’t that strong..
To own so many hurts…!!..

Am I the one,
Embraced by this misfortune,
Parting was never so tough..
Even for The sun and the Moon…

Flaunting a smile, was never a hobby,
Though, a routine..
That it has become now for me…

Hee-Haws and giggles,
Jokes separated…
A sad saga commenced..
As we daparted..!!..

[Had Written This One... The day My best friend, Grishma Shifted... 2nd April, 2007...

Though...We are on different ways now.. yet very much Connected!]

Randomized Nevers.

I never win first place...
Winning is not on my list of priorities...I have no room for contests.
I am usually late in realizing the depth of a situation...
But, "Better late than never", as the saying goes...!!..
My spelling is good, but I am bad at maths...
I never liked numbers anyway...!!..
I have Attention Deficit Disorder, so I never do the same thing twice,
unless there are special benefits involved...!!..
I am not beautiful--inside or out.
I never intended to be.
Because beauty will fade away one day...!!..
Most of the times, I like to SCREAM and YELL,
although it never serves a purpose..!!..
But then, many things have no purpose and many more things never will...
in my aimless life...
I hate the sunshine.
It's much too bright sometimes.
I never enjoyed nature anyway..!!..
I eat meat, despite the fact that it never looks good...!!..
I'm such a big cynic. Cynics are never disappointed--
I haved learned through experience to expect the worst in all situations.
Never underestimate the power of reality, It might just drive you crazy...!!..

[This is the weirdest poem I have ever written.. Wrote This one... while i was getting bored with too many free lectures... and I didn't have any work to do... Except for studying.. and I was in no mood of doing that...then!]

Time Fleets!

Time is Short

Time waits for none...Time flies.

My fragile heart wants to soar.

But the cruel world just screams and roars.

I worked..studied and rushed when growing up.

Now I Wish to to go back and just stop the clock,

But time has his own way...

It is strong as the rock...

School bugged when i grew up...

But, didn't relaize when it became the good 'ole days?

And, there are no words now to redefine my amazing ways.

My days are now slightly shorter..

My wishes are longer and longer.

Though, My life continues to be fuller, I know it has become darker..

Time is still slipping, into the future.

Time flows Forever and ever.

It is Precious so Now i waste it never.

[Wrote it on a day... Immediately after I joined My junior College....It Was one of those days.. when I found myself Missing My School Days Too Much!]

Take Me Home!

AM tired of sitting here, doing nothing,
With another hour to go,
I feel dozing!

With hundreds of people hovering around me,
Still I am alone in this crowded sea!

Miles from here,
Is the ultimate joy,
Where nobody will stop me or destroy..!

Long across the distances, where I want to be,
There I will catch hold of all my desired glee!
The ones who will care for me,And, support will be absolutely free!

Someone to share all my sorrows,
There I don't have any foes...

Ohh! the Trains,
take me to my home,
Where amidst of my dear ones, I will freely roam!

[Wrote This One during One of the Lectures... When I terribly wished To Run Away to My Home...
Don't remember Which Lecture It was...Though...]

AND COMES THE WAKE UP CALL.

26th, The wednesday, Dawned as usual,
Nothing about it was at all dismal.
The birds sang their merry song,
Nothing that day, Seemed to go wrong.

The city moved on,
Basking in the busy life...
'Mumbaikars' beamed with joy,
Even in their regular strife.

While the day fulfilled the dreams of many,
The moonlight gifted the nightmare to all.
Making everybody realize that,
The blasts are the final wake up call.

The shining Taj,
And the Alluring Trident,
Were painted with blood...
Leaving on Mumbai's Map, a Dent!

The hearts that were filled with joy,
Reached the abyss of painful fear.
The people were shivering,
As they saw their end coming near.

What could one do...
Pray for their lives?
When the terrorists were in...
The mood of dreadful jives.

But, there is a hero everywhere...
Yes! They were the brave commandos.
Who knew nothing except the fact,
That the terrorists were the deadliest foes!

As they went for the kill,
A sense of revolution, in our bosom filled.
We knew, it is time,
to get united for something sublime.

Patience has been tested,
No political explanation to hear, are we interested.
Action is all we crave for now...
Will fight for your peace, Motherland..We promise thou!

"TERRORISM", yes! That's the word, we dread...
But no more, will we let our roads be clad red.
And, as the new generation awakens,
They will not be afraid to live in our nation
And, will freely breathe!


Mumbai... We salute your spirit..!!
As you are back in action, after being so harshly hit...
But, this time, An eternal flame in our soul been lit,
No more corruption are we going to greet.

From the attacks, A new Mumbai will revive
,As the phoenix, From the ashes got a new life.
It's high time we get our system straight,
Definitely, a revolutionary movement is in our country's fate!

[Versified This One After the 26th November... Mumbai terror Attacks]

Past Will Stay Forever!

How could you expect,

Me not to cling to my past?

It's the loveliest ever,

And, forever will it last!

Helped me carry through my worries,

My sweetest friends,

Whom you want me to forget,

Sorry! for it won't end..!!

Neither will I mend my ways,

Nor will I leave the memories,

That will, With me go away,

As will go my life's glees...!

Now, am forgetting the tears,

Still I own my ultimate cheers,

I felt it here...

With all my buddies so near.

And, it's time to bid farewell??

You got it all wrong...

Not my cup of tea to do so...

It's a way too long!!

Shocked am I,

with these news..That brings so much fun to you...

But, I've got reasons too few,

To relish this new hue..!

A deluge of tears approaching,

And, am afraid to take the next step...

Shattered, that's what my life is,

And, I cannot get your silly concept!

Washing away the thoughts is what you want,

And, am too stubborn to do that...

It maybe five years for you,

But, it's my life's ultimate pact!

Am glad to be chained by them,

Unchaining is not my idea...

Revealing my sorrow is worthless i know,

So, the smile is concealing my painful dilemma!

Moments to minutes,

That turned into hours,

Is what I'll find tough to leave,

But, if I don't do so...My heart will ache more...I believe!

So, here I leave,

All my life to thee...

And, I just want to plead...

"Please forgive me!"

Alone, will I die..

Without the cheers I swear...

But, it will become a habit...

And, the smile will i forever wear!

[February 2008...
Penned down After I was Thrusted With the News OF Shifting My Residence]